Posted by Anonymous on 2020/02/18 under Love Hi. I've never really told anyone this, ever, so consider yourself special. My story isn't that exciting, in fact, it's barely even a story, but read if you want. I've been friends with this boy named, Lets say Friend A since 7th grade. We've known each other since kindergarten, but now we're sort of friends. It's complicated.
I'm going to try and explain this in the best way possible.
I liked Friend A, for the longest time. But I didn't realize I liked him. I thought we were friends, but what I didn't realize was that I liked him for the longest time. I texted him every day. I didn't realize his dry responses and leaving me on read meant he didn't like me. He dated 3 other girls that year. And told me all of his crushes and what was going on, because we were friends. Then at the end of the year, I realized. S***, I like him. And that was tough, because realizing that I liked him also made me realize he didn't like me back. And that was tough.
A new school year started and I decided that I was done. I was done chasing him, texting first, all of it. If he didn't like me, that was it. I'm not going for it. So I stopped. I stopped texting him. I stopped smiling at him in the hallway. And that helped for a while, but I still wasn't getting over him. I tried everything, I even pulled a Lara Jean and wrote a letter about all the bad things about him. But none of it worked. I had to completely reset, program myself to realize: He's not enough. He isn't really that nice, that cute. What do I see in him? He's annoying, rude. I'm stupid.
Thankfully, my saving grace came. Every year he went on a trip for 2 months, and that's exactly what I needed. He left and I could focus. I started to notice other guys. Like Jack, the tall athlete. Or Peyton in my gym class. They talked to me, they were nice to me, made jokes. More than Friend A had. I thought I had finally done it, I was done! I had gotten over him, all good.
Then, he came back. I wasn't expecting it either. He was just back. And…I tried not to think about it. I was better than before he left. I didn't look at him, I didn't talk to him as much. he talked to me a little. He even texted me first a few times. I had to stay away though. I tried not to think about him, which I did a few times, unfortunately. I don't know what to do! I'm trying to get over him, I really want to clear him from my mind.
Any suggestions on how to do this? Please help 🙁
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Nope. I’ve been stuck on a guy for over 12 years.
I have tried starting over with other people, being in a relationship and starting a family, writing about it, snapping a rubber band on my wrist when I think about him, and everything else you could think of.
I’m slowly getting over him now.
Time has helped. Maybe I’ll get over him in another 10 years
Best of luck